hello february. hello blog.

I had a revelation while I was away: I blog for me.

Lately I’ve been finding that blogging has become a bit of a chore. Another thing on my to-do list that already has too many things without a line through them. I worry about what to write and if you’ll find it interesting. (“you” of course being those who read this blog out there in the ether. who knows who “you” are? certainly not me.) I worry that you’ll stop reading if I break for too long. Sometimes I even worry that you are reading. And then I think about crawling back into my hole.

All of that worry has sucked the joy out of blogging for me lately. Stepping away and letting it go while visiting family this month was just the breath of fresh air I needed though and I’ve returned with new resolve. (hey, maybe I’m finally getting around to making a New Year’s resolution!). The Pigbear is mine. I write and post here because I want to preserve these memories for my family. I don’t ever want to forget how that Pi’bears looks first thing in the morning or how B-Ro scoots across the floor with his high-stepping crawl. I love that you all come by and read occasionally. I really, really do. I hope that you’ll continue to do so if it gives you joy or insight or smiles or whatever. But I’m promising right now to get back to the heart of why I blog: to preserve this precious life for us. I’m reclaiming this thing that will sing the song of my baby’s young lives back to me when I’ve long forgotten what a wet-haired, footie-pajama’d, jumping-on-the bed child feels like nestled up in my chest. I’m starting today.

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SamanthaFebruary 1, 2009 - 12:46 pm

Awesome pic! Now no more travel – I miss you too much.

lyndsay stradtnerFebruary 1, 2009 - 12:48 pm

I totally know what you mean….it can be easy to get lost in trying to please your readers, but I try and remember it is for my family. It’s been my experience that the fun little moments we cherish, are the very ones that keep people coming back anyway. I’ve missed your posts and am glad you are back =)

ShannonFebruary 1, 2009 - 1:05 pm

Well I’m selfishly glad you aren’t giving up on the blog because it’s part of my daily blog checking routine. 🙂 Personally I was first drawn to your blog because a) I heard that the mom of the Gap Baby Contest winner had a blog and I wanted to check it out and I kept coming back because b) I realized you were a “real” mom, posting about “real” things and it appealed specifically to me because you also had a flair for photography which was a hobby of mine as well. So, for what it’s worth just be a mom posting about your kids and family and I’ll be a fan forever. 🙂

JodieFebruary 1, 2009 - 1:57 pm

Good for you! I think that is what blogs are all about – keeping in touch and holding on to memories. I love popping into your blog and seeing your wonderful photos and adorable munchkins.

sonjaFebruary 1, 2009 - 3:13 pm

Glad you’re back and glad you could enjoy your family! I read somewhere once that to be a successful blogger, you need to make a point in every blog post. And I tried it. But it wasn’t really me…I need to blog as if I am scrapbooking like I used to do faithfully. If there is a point, good. If there isn’t, who cares? Having a popular blog isn’t for me anyways; I too, am doing it for our kids.

And I have you to thank for showing your slurped book. It was what made me look into Blogger in the first place….so I blog because the book you made of Sarah’s first year was so special.

Aunt LuFebruary 1, 2009 - 3:39 pm

Take it from me Deed, one day you’ll look back on this blog and be so grateful you made the time for it. I can honestly say I wish so much I had done more in remembering things my boys did when they were little. Sure I have pictures and scrapbooks but it’s nothing compared to what you have here. Just remember this blog is for you the people who are lucky enough to read it are just that…..LUCKY!

JenniferFebruary 1, 2009 - 4:04 pm

I wholeheartedly agree with Aunt Lu! Your blog and the slurped books you make are irreplaceable memories you’ll have once your kids are all grown. And what a wonderful thing it will be, to be able to show your grandkids!! We love your blog because of you and that’s what brought in all your fans – well that and your awesome photography, beautiful kids….. There’s nothing that makes me smile quite like a picture of B’Ro!! You give us a little piece of sunshine on a dreary day and for that I thank you.

AmyFebruary 1, 2009 - 4:49 pm

I’m glad you’re back. And I’m always happy with whatever you post. . . it makes it seem like I’m not 1000+ miles away. It’s not the same as having you guys over for dinner or walking down to It’s A Grind, but I’ll take what I can get! And I’m glad you provide it 🙂

BethanyFebruary 1, 2009 - 5:57 pm

Good for you! I love your blog and will continue to pop in and look at your munchkins…bed head, pajamas and all!! Thanks for keeping it real…for us but mostly for you!! You’ll cherish these entries when your kiddos are all grown up!

Have a wonderful weekend!

jackieFebruary 1, 2009 - 6:00 pm

I just have to say that I love your blog so much. You have such way with words, and with photographs too(duh!LOL) that frequently brings tears to my eyes. One look at this awesome blog and you can see how much love you have for your family and your life:) Thanks for sharing, even if you are doing it for yourself! And this reminds me that I need to start blogging more frequently too, it’s so fun to look back on!

MeganFebruary 1, 2009 - 6:32 pm

I am happy you are back. I’m glad you found your resolve. I like to read your blog and catch up with you. Seeing your kids on the blog makes me forget that I haven’t actually met them yet. Kind of weird for me when you were the first to visit me in the hospital when I had Mazie and visit more than once. I love that all the kids are having fun on the bed.

LizNFebruary 1, 2009 - 7:02 pm

YAY! I’m glad to hear you say it out loud to yourself. Do it for YOU! I’m just glad you share these memories with me.

ChrisFebruary 1, 2009 - 7:23 pm

I love reading your blog even if we don’t know each other. I can only dream that I’ll be able to photograph my son like you do.

j.j.February 1, 2009 - 7:28 pm

yup. good for you.

BELLEFebruary 1, 2009 - 8:13 pm

I look back on my 1 year old posts and get a bit nostalgic. And am grateful that I took that photo and wrote about it. But I’m also aware that others read my blog as well, and I want to please them also. So I’m torn – do I blog for others or for me? Bit of both, honestly. I’m glad you’ve found your reason, Erin, and I’m glad you share with us!

KristinFebruary 1, 2009 - 8:26 pm

Well, rock on with your bad self!! I agree 100%! Good for you!

Tina RFebruary 1, 2009 - 9:36 pm

I love reading every post, like many others. I’m glad you’ll do it for you, Brent, Sarah & Ephraim. You’ll be so glad to have these memories!

LaraFebruary 2, 2009 - 7:01 am

Shew! I’m glad you’re back because I don’t know if I could make it through the day without your beautiful photos! I’m gald, though, that you’re doing it for yourself and not your readers. I know some people thinks blogs are goofy or whatever, but I like chronicling things that happen in life in a blog, and it is a good way to keep memories alive.

sarahFebruary 2, 2009 - 9:14 am

That was my #1 resolution this year. 🙂 The blog is for us, not the readers. If people still find it interesting, great. If not, at least I’m still documenting things I want to remember for ME. 🙂

P.S., I saw a photo of yours a little while ago taken in your kitchen and I’ve been in love with your kitchen curtains ever since! Can I ask where you found them or where you found the fabric?? Thanks!

shelbyFebruary 2, 2009 - 11:43 am

I am so glad that you are back and writing again. I think you have hit the nail on the head as to why we all should be doing this. Good for you! I personally love the times on your blog when you share stories about your kids as I (as I am sure many people who are reading your blog) are going through very much the same, or similar things!

rachelzanaFebruary 2, 2009 - 11:48 am

I stop here EVERY day, without fail. You have one of my favorite blogs ever. EVERYTHING about you and your family is interesting, and even though I don’t know you personally, I sure wish that I did. Write and post what you feel like writing and posting about, that’s what makes your blog so neat in the first place. You are funny, and real, your writing is terrific, and your pictures, are, of course, fantastic. But that’s just because you are your own person. Isn’t it amazing all the little tidbits of life that end up getting recorded into a blog that would just have been completely forgotten otherwise? I love that about blogging.

SusieFebruary 2, 2009 - 8:10 pm

Ok, I have a lesson for you to learn. Just write a crummy blog like I do, and then you won’t have any followers. The pressure is OFF! 🙂

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