basking.

Every once in a while I have a rare moment of clarity when I can see myself and my life – warts and blessings and all – and I can bask there for fleeting second, appreciating it all.

Lastย  Saturday morning I walked in the door at 7:30 a.m., dog tired from a night of photographing an almost-birth (she delivered the next morning at 8:30 a.m. instead). I phoned ahead and asked Brent if he wanted some coffee and, of course, he did. Knowing that Brent would still be in bed but that the kiddos would be sprawled around the living room watching a show, crafting their little hearts out, or snuggling, I decided to treat them to an early morning surprise too.

Walking into my home that early in the morning – and that far out of my routine – gifted me with a divine glimpse of the everyday.

There was a cardboard shrine on the dining room table bench waiting to be recycled (there always is),

a dirty sock on the floor left there by a mama who ripped it off during an 8-minute abs induced heatwave the day before,

a girl in a sling surrounded by a balloon and a teddy bear and a potted plant – all gifts from her Grandad to soften the blow of her injury,

two matching bowls of cereal and cups of water, prepositioned by a daddy the night before who was planning to sleep in,

and a brother who attacked his baby scone the minute the brown paper bag was torn apart, exclaiming, “you’re the best mommy ever!”

I am absolutely, positively, laughably not the best mommy ever.

But every once in a while, in a rare moment of clarity I see myself and my life – warts and blessings and all – and I just bask.

JenniferFebruary 16, 2012 - 1:21 pm

Well I’m going to have to agree with B-Ro – cause those little scones are pretty darn terrific! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Jessica WFebruary 16, 2012 - 2:45 pm

You know what I took away from this? We need to start leaving food out on Saturday and Sunday for the kids. lol Seriously, though, I have had some of those moments lately, and it is wonderful!

Lacey RFebruary 17, 2012 - 12:01 am

Right there with you tonight, Erin! Gratitude and being able to see and delight in our blessings is the greatest gift, isn’t it?! Beautifully written! Thank you for sharing!!

carolFebruary 17, 2012 - 2:32 pm

have i missed something? is that canvas in the dining room bigger? did you just add another one next to it or is it a new piece?! wow!

AmandaFebruary 21, 2012 - 11:11 am

Leaving food out the night before? You guys are geniuses! I may have to steal that idea. ๐Ÿ™‚
I feel that way a lot too, though. Sometimes I find myself caught up in the things I wish I could change about my life, but other times the perfection of one moment takes my breath. All part of being a parent, I guess.

adminFebruary 28, 2012 - 7:12 pm

Good eye Carol! I added a new piece last Fall. =)

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