hello me

Today I’m reintroducing myself. To myself. I’m hoping this marks the reemergence of the me I know and love. Tomorrow Ephraim turns four weeks and it feels like a blur. It started with round one of The Stomach Virus That Ravaged Our Family but took on even more speed when Little Dude had not yet regained his birth weight at two weeks and sent mommy into a panic (I’m such a freak, I know). Then round two of The Stomach Virus That Ravaged Our Family came knocking and we were a mess again.

I think as an act of independence from this four week vortex last night Brent joined me in making dinner (our first time since the birth) and then cleaned the house from top to bottom. As I fell asleep last night I knew that when I woke up things would at least look normal again. And they did. And now after carting Ephraim to the pediatrician for a weight check this morning I’m officially declaring my own independence from the vortex because I now have a fatty – 8 pounds, 11 ounces!

So hello me! It’s nice to remeet you. In case we lose each other again here are some things we should know about each other that might make the refinding a bit easier:

– I take pictures. A LOT OF PICTURES. Which means that the 20-30 photos I have of baby E over the last four weeks is simply not acceptable.
– I blog. It’s my outlet. Once a week just isn’t going to cut it.
– I like to drink tea with sugar and milk.
– I do things on time (most of the time). Sending Christmas cards out days before the holiday and barely getting teacher’s presents delivered to school before they close the doors for the break just isn’t my style. Don’t let it happen again.
– I’m a better friend/daughter/wife/mother/sister than my December record has shown. Or November for that matter. Let’s kick off 2008 with a tad more thoughtfulness, how ’bout it?
– I enjoy being a mommy. No amount of stress or worry should overshadow that.
– I’m a happy person. So move over baby blues.

Good. So now that myself and I have been reintroduced let me tackle number one on that list!

(what is it about babies and lights? Like little moths to big flames…)

And for those who have been asking baby E is still in need of a nickname that sticks and warrants blog renaming. So far we work with Little Dude, Baby E, Snugglepuppy, Oh You’re A Great Little Guy, and Baby Brother on a regular basis but nothing’s official yet.

AmandaDecember 17, 2007 - 11:10 am

Everything sounds overwhelming for you right now. I hope life gets back to normal (as normal as possible) soon!

stacyhatDecember 17, 2007 - 11:17 am

I saw your comment on our blog this morning and wanted to thank you and let you know we’ve been checking your blog too! I hope it’s okay that we linked yours…it’s just so good! About the new baby blues…It’s a hard thing to go from focusing on one child to two, especially with all of the other elements, the flu, visits from friends, the flu…You’re doing great Erin! Just roll with it. You’ll find a new groove soon and life will be new yet familiar once more!

JenniferDecember 17, 2007 - 11:37 am

Welcome back!! We’ve missed you!! It must have been very hard for you to set aside your Superwoman identity for a bit, but you’re back and we can all feel inferior again. ๐Ÿ™‚

At least things have gotten back to some semblance of normal (well, the “new normal”) before Christmas and I hope things are smooth sailing from here on out.

J.J. KillinsDecember 17, 2007 - 11:43 am

yay for having a fatty!! you did it! way to go, mama! and for the record i love tea with milk and sugar, too, and would sure love to have a cuppa cheer with you this afternoon:)

JessicaDecember 17, 2007 - 11:57 am

oh yeah. you are back. i was plum tickled when i saw a new post. only, i’ll be out of it come thursday, when little man is scheduled to arrive, and i won’t be a pigbear stalker anymore!
baby E is precious, as i’ve told you many times! i just love what you wrote. i’m in “get ready” mode right now, and i must stop to enjoy my little sam and my simple life of having time to read your blog and everyone else’s and clean up during his nap time….not going to happen in a few short days! wish me blessings and prayers!

AnonymousDecember 17, 2007 - 12:08 pm

The adventures of Princess Pigbear and the Snuggle Puppy….My vote for blog renaming! So good that you can take a moment to step back and realize what you miss about yourself. Your new normal will be wonderfully in sync before you know it! Glad little guy is back in the black in the pounds department! Yea for you!

luvbnmaDecember 17, 2007 - 12:17 pm

Let’s see . . . Princess Pigbear and the Darling Dude”

Ha!

Glad to hear you are feeling better. Adding a baby to a family is hard when the oldest child is not more than a baby herself. It will get easier.

Amanda AZ

ElizabethDecember 17, 2007 - 12:33 pm

Oh, Erin, I’ve been thinking of you! Maddie had the stomach flu two days after Gracie was born (she was born 16 days early, Dec. 14, so we were NOT ready for Christmas) and during those same two days our dryer died. We were a mess. You have my sympathiesโ€”oh my.

I love, love your list : )

AmyDecember 17, 2007 - 12:55 pm

Hang in there Erin. It does get better. Had the baby blues when I had Luke and Jack and you are getting back on track and heading in the right direction! Take a step back, breath and enjoy each moment and know God is blessing you and your family!

AmyDecember 17, 2007 - 1:07 pm

Yay! You’re back! You have our love and support and lots of hugs!

Cathy BolanderDecember 17, 2007 - 2:13 pm

I’m glad to see you’re back. I’ve missed your updates.

Friend of Katie & jj

Susie PSUDecember 17, 2007 - 2:29 pm

I’ve missed your, blog! You’ll come up with a nickname, AND a new blog name. You have creativity just flowing through ya!

Now, how ’bout coming over to clean MY house from top to bottom??

MeganDecember 17, 2007 - 3:08 pm

First of all, you are WAY too hard on yourself. You have to give yourself some time. You did just have a baby and introduced him into a family of three. Of course that was going to be way different than bringing home #1. Second, you are a great mom. Sarah is happy, Ephraim is happy. That’s enough about that. Third, it gets easier. You will find your groove and it will work out. Keep your head up and trust yourself. Glad you are doing well now!

KimDecember 17, 2007 - 3:38 pm

Welcome back Erin! Don’t beat yourself up to much, I had a hard time getting my act together with just one baby. Look at you with a beautiful toddler and sweetheart of a baby. I am amazed that you have a clean house (I don’t and it is 15 months later…hehe). You have all of our support. Hang in there, I will put you in our familes’ prayers.

lizDecember 17, 2007 - 4:06 pm

It sounds like you’re doing great to me! But IS nice to meet you again ๐Ÿ™‚
Give squeezes to everyone for us.
Congrats to you both on surviving (and thriving!) this first month.

DeniseDecember 17, 2007 - 6:49 pm

Nice to meet you, Erin! But, I agree with your other blog friends. 4 weeks is hardly any time after having a baby. Getting your groove back will take TIME. You are a great mommy, wife, friend, photographer, blog-queen, the list goes on! So, enjoy your clean house (I’m jealous) and get lots of that sweet little baby sugar!! (Baby blues left me after about 5 weeks – so let’s hope those B2 get the HECK out of here!!!!)

BrandyDecember 17, 2007 - 8:06 pm

We’re glad to have you back! Thanks for the pics.

social chickDecember 18, 2007 - 7:16 am

Sometimes it is nice to just sit down and realize who we are. Although we as woman carry many titles we have to remember who God created us to be. Thanks for sharing.
social chick

TriceDecember 18, 2007 - 7:35 am

Princess Pigbear and Snugglepuppy are classic.

I am glad that you all are doing better.

AnonymousDecember 18, 2007 - 8:30 am

Welcome back Erin!! Love the picture of Baby E gazing @ the lights! Amy T.

joyDecember 18, 2007 - 12:41 pm

sorry you’ve all been so sick! hopefully it will not come lurking again any time soon! hang in there erin, you are doing a great job with everything, even if you don’t always see it!! ๐Ÿ™‚ btw — those big baby boy eyes are just beautiful! (and I love the nickname baby E — I have a feeling he might be called that quite often! We gave our boy such a regal name, and now we call him Booger Boy — so go figure!)

LisaDecember 18, 2007 - 12:53 pm

You need to cut yourself some slack. You just had a baby 4 weeks ago and you have a 2 year old toddler and you moved just moved months ago! Makes me tired thinking of all that!!!

I’m sure things will get back to normal soon. I do like the goals list though ๐Ÿ™‚ and of course the picture of baby E looking at the light. My daughter loved the fan!

GinaDecember 18, 2007 - 9:35 pm

Hang in there Erin, I think the first month was the hardest for me too. You are doing wonderful, PROUD OF YOU!

AndreaDecember 19, 2007 - 2:22 pm

Erin, this post brought tears to my eyes. I think I just had a breakthrough while I was reading it. I am going to reintroduce myself to myself too. Thank you for this- you have no idea how much this post helped me.

AudreyJanuary 3, 2008 - 3:49 pm

Oh my goodness, the photo of him looking up at the light is perfection!!!

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